SAHM life

For my fellow stay at home mamas, you definitely feel me when I say. It’s a lonely life. It’s a rewarding life, but it’s a lonely one. Although I am incredibly thankful I am able to stay at home with my daughter. It’s still very tough at times. it’s tiring, it’s mentally draining and it’s many days of barely speaking to another adult. Some days are so fun, and some days you want to tear your hair out! And almost always, your significant other doesn’t seem to understand. I mean, they’re the ones working all day right? We just get to sit at home and chill? I really wish it were the case. If I wanted laundry to build up and dishes not clean, then I guess I could chill all day. Keeping a child alive and teaching her how to crawl, walk and talk. Along with keeping the house clean and taking care of three animals. Not to mention, taking care of myself! Which is always last on the list. Thats a huge mental load. And the best part, is no time off. They get to come home and not work, they get the night off. We’re on, all day all night. I feel silly waking up from her in the middle of the night to have to wake him up to go get her. It’s like why don’t I just go get her instead of going through the hassle of getting him to wake up. Some days you simply just don’t want to “mom.” You just want to go back to the days where the only thing that depended on you to survive, had four legs. and that’s okay. It doesn’t mean you can’t handle it. It doesn’t mean you weren’t meant for this. It doesn’t mean you don’t love your child. In fact you love your child so much you feel guilty for taking time to yourself which is how your now burnt out. And now you feel guilty for wanting to be away. It’s a vicious cycle. I love my daughter so much, as I know all you moms love your babies. And being a mom is one of the most rewarding, amazing, best and hardest things I’ve ever done. I love motherhood. But some days, most days lately ARE TOUGH! When you don’t have friends or family close, it is so hard. It is isolating, it is repetitive. Some days it’s okay, and they are great days. Some days drag on with boredom. And that’s okay!! I’m finding my purpose in this world other then being Mirabellas mom. This blog and Instagram help with that. Hoping it goes somewhere but in the end this is for Mirabella and for me too. If your a stay at home mom and in the Gainesville, GA, let’s get together! Moms need moms. 🍁🍂🧡🍂🧡🍁